Saturday, 26 October 2013

Feel Good With Zoe: How You Look and Why It Doesn't Matter

HELLO! Welcome to this new..series..type thing..that I'm doing. I am here to make you feel better about yourself. Well try anyway, I can't work miracles. I am here to make you feel more confident. Just don't become an arrogant prick. That's never fun. I'm going to try and shove a truck-full of confidence, down your...face..hole. That sounds highly unpleasant. Let's begin.

And today's topic is, how you look and why it doesn't matter.

I can not wait to get started on this topic, so I'm just going to jump right into it. *splash*
Now you, look at me. Well you can't really look at me but just..try. 

It doesn't matter what you look like. Honestly. Stop groaning at me. Now if you want this to work, stay with me and do as I say. I want you to get a pen and some paper and write down a list of things you don't like about your appearance. Go on..scram. I'll be waiting. Damn it, I'm trying to help you here!

So, if you actually give a shit, you should have a list of things you do not like about yourself. I'm going to guess you have things written like, "I think I'm fat" "I have spots" "I'm just not as attractive as my friends". It is OK to have things you do not like about yourself. Everybody does. It is not OK, however, to let these things get you down. That is what you've been given, and you just have to suck it up and work with it. 

Now, I want you to look back over your list and answer this; how many of these "flaws", will stop you getting good grades at school? How many of those things will stop you getting into the college or career you want? How many of those things are making you unhappy right now? The answer to the first two questions is probably none of them. I don't know the answer to the third question but, what I do know is, you have the power to get rid of that negativity and stop these minor things making you unhappy because, they do not matter. 

It's human nature to not like ourselves. We want to be attractive to other people. Society wants us to not like ourselves and we are supposedly "arrogant" if we do. What you see in the mirror, is just a shell. A shell to protect the real you, which is inside that shell. Does that make sense? It did in my head. What you see in that mirror, will not get you through life. Going back to the "wanting to be attractive" thing, we all want someone who "loves me for who I am and not what I look like". Why do you care about being physically attractive to people then? Looking good makes us feel more confident. Lies. Looking in the mirror and accepting what we look like that day, gives us confidence. 

Your friend comes up to you and says, "I feel so ugly today". You don't think that. You love your friend and they are beautiful to you. Well guess what Sunshine, your friend thinks that same thing about you. Other people do not see you, the way you see yourself. You're not ugly, you damn fine.

What I am trying to say is, everyone wants to be pretty and attractive to be loved and adored by other humans. That's it. There is no such thing as an ugly person because, it is what is inside you that will get you through life, and that's all that really matters. 

I hope this helped you in some way. I know it'd kind of ranty, but go away its late. I hope you can feel that truck of confidence, ramming it's way..inside you. I'm going to need to find a new tagline for this series...


Wednesday, 9 October 2013

Welcome, to The World of Gaming

The gaming world is a complex place, with all different types of gamers. You've got the hardcore gamers, the casual gamers, rage gamers, boy/girl gamers..whatever. There's a lot of speculation of how playing video games on a regular bases will ruin your social life, your school life, your relationships etc. My mother was never happy with my gaming habits but, I had a reason for it. I didn't have any friends.

I've had a lot of games and consoles in my time but one memory stands out for me. I was about 12 or 13 and had just started secondary school, which I hated. I had no friends, my grades were off the wall terrible and I was terribly unhappy. I had some money spare and decided to buy an Nintendo Wii, (shut up, I can hear you groaning) and because there was a deal on at the time, I got "Animal Crossing; Let's Go To The City" for free. At the time, I didn't even know what "Animal Crossing" was. For those of you who are unfamiliar, basically you're the only human in a town full of talking animals, (yay for bestiality), and you run around, customizing your character, celebrating in-game holidays etc. I instantly fell in love with this game.

The highlight of my day was, getting home from school as quickly as possible so I could just play for the rest of the evening. Every time I entered the game, the town folk would come visit me or I'd visit them and they'd tell me how happy the were to see me, or ask for my help with something. It sounds really pathetic now but, I'd been playing for almost 2 years at this point, and for the first time I felt like I had friends and I was actually appreciated. (STOP JUDGING ME).

Eventually, I got my PS3 and was introduced to online gaming. I hate online gaming. Mainly because everyone is an asshole. You can instantly tell by my gamer tag that I am a girl, and if you enter a game with a group of boys, the abuse you get is shocking. I used to get it in COD, until I just gave up playing it altogether, but now, I can't even play GTA online anymore. GTA online, lets me hear other people in the chat but they can't hear me unless I use a mic. But of course, they know I'm a girl just by my name. (No, my tag is not UnicornDaiseys12 but still). Basically what happened was, I could here the guys talking about how there was a girl in the session, and I started joking to my boyfriend about how they would track me down and gang rape me. They actually did in the end. (Well not rape me, but they did track me down). Long story short, these guys hunted me down and repeatedly killed me. And because GTA online is a buggy piece of shit, it was the only session I could get into. Also I was too stubborn to go into passive mode. This is why girls don't like you boy gamers. You want us to play with you, and when we do you don't even let us play.

However, I did carry my team through a last team standing match, so I guess I have that to be proud of.