Thursday, 17 July 2014

Where Am I Now? (Slightly Pessimistic Version)

Edited version of a thought I had earlier today (17-7-14, 12:29pm)

I always think that writing in the sun would be a good idea, it gets me every year. It never is, though. I always end up sleepy, blind, or with a rash because, out of all the things in the world I could be allergic to, I am allergic to the sun. I wish I was joking but, I'm not. I don't know why, but, my house is the only house that seems to have sun, at the moment. I'm also writing this on paper, which is strange. My writing is barely legible anymore.

Sitting outside in the sun, has made me start thinking about where I was, a few years ago. Take when I started this blog, for example. Where was I, 2-3 years ago? This time, 2 years ago, I was waiting for my Junior Cert results to come back. Today, I'm waiting for my Leaving Cert results to come, in August. My biggest worry 2 years ago, was having to return to school and losing half of my friends, to the dreaded TY. Now, it's will I get into college? Can I even afford to go?  Why does everyone hate me so much, and are trying to ruin my graduation? Should I start being an adult and get a job or something? Should I restart Tomb Raider?

I've been through a lot, in the past 2 years. Things that people my age shouldn't have to. A lot of time, problems would get out of control which would lead to more problems, which were harder to solve. I got through it in the end, like I always do. I'm one of the strongest people I know, and my own best friend during these times because, I struggle to talk about them. Now, 2 years later, I feel like I've learned several life lessons and I think that's a good thing. I keep telling myself I'm happy. I suppose we'll see in August.

~Zoe

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