I'm not normally someone who gets stressed out easily. Things like exams, college, money, have never phased me. Normal things. I can easily see why these things may be seen as stressful for some but, not for me. I am, what I like to call, a "stress sponge". If you think about a sponge, it's pretty light when it's new and clean, or whatever. Add a tiny splash of water. Still light enough. Keep adding water, and you'll end up with a soggy, heavy mess. That is kinda what I am like with stress. Me, being the sponge, and stress, being the water.
Lately, I've been feeling very odd. I want to say I'm stressed but, I'm not really. I don't know what is "stressing" me out. I've been sick for the past two weeks. The first week, with a tummy bug and the second with some form of mild pneumonia. It hasn't been a fun time. I'm fine by the way, thanks to everyone that asked. I suppose mainly, I've been feeling very isolated. Sort of used in a way. People just seem to want to take advantage in any way they can. Family, "friends", people I speak to online..everybody. I haven't left the house in ages because, I'm last on a lot of people's guest lists. Yes, I am feeling sorry for myself. No one else does.
As someone who suffers from depression, I've never been good at picking myself up or taking my own advice. I figured that, if I can't help myself, I could maybe help some of you. I know exam results are coming and that can be a stressful time, for some. So sit down children, it's story time.
Once upon a time, there was a woman. Let's call her...Annie. Annie, was a stay at home mum, looking after her children whilst her husband worked. All of Annie's friends had jobs. They told Annie that she was wasting her time just staying at home and would be able to enjoy herself more, if she had her own income. Annie thought long and hard about this, and decided that she would get a job.
Annie would have to leave for work at 7am, along with her husband, to go to work, leaving her 12 year old son and 5 year old daughter to fend for themselves each morning. She would arrive home at 4 each evening, cook dinner,do the chores, take her son to football training, and come home again at about 9 o'clock to find her 5 year old daughter asleep. She's already have completed her homework and laid her clothes out for the next day, on her own.
This went on for about 5 months. Annie was feeling very sad and stressed out at work. Sure, she was making extra money but, she rarely got to see her family. She decided to quit her job and return to being a full time housewife, much to the disappointment of her friends. However, Annie didn't care because, she was happy to be back with her family.
So, I guess the moral of the story is, if something is stressing you out or, upsetting you, instead of moping and worrying about it, just deal with it and get rid of the problem. There's a random saying I heard, that says, "You better check yourself before you mess yourself". I'm not sure it's a legit saying, in fact I'm pretty sure it isn't, but the point is that you need to take a step back, check to see what's bothering you and fix it before you let it take over and ruin your good times. I'm pretty sure that's not how the saying is meant to be used either, but, hey.